Nor Adriana Amli Mahfuz

D.O.B: 25/07/2004

W.A.B: 2.9kg

P.O.B: APSH

Adriana is my little baby. She is my opps baby. After Azrai, I decided not to have any more baby, but I guess God have other plan for me. When I found out that I was pregnant, I was so shocked. I told DM(the same gynea when I was pregant with Azrai) that I was on pills and that's 99% to prevent pregnancy, then he said well the power of the 1% is much greater than the 99%. Which is soo true.

With this pregnancy, I was not in any pressured, I don't mind about the sex of the baby. But I was really in denial about this pregnancy. I kept asking myself, how could this happened?? I was careful and Azrai still a baby and it's not healthy for him to have a sister when he is still young. All of this dissapeared when the first time I saw Adriana's scan. I fell in love with her.

At about my first trimester, which is about 3 months-I was bleeding. It happened on Hari Raya Haji, we were traveling from our house to my grandmom's place in Muar(which is about 2 hours drive from KL). I felt something funny but I assumed that because I was so tired the day before-looking after Azrai. When we arrived at my grandmom's place, when I got down from the car, my auntie was screaming-"You're bleeding". Only then I looked at the car seat, I was so shocked and scared, it was soaked with blood!!!! I really did not know what to do, all the clinics are closed for the holiday. Amli tried to call DM, but he switched off his mobile. Nothing that we can do except praying and hoping for the best.

Once back in KL, the first thing that we did was went and see DM. Told him what happened, and according to him it doesn't sound so good but to be sure he will do a scan to find out the condition of my baby. I was so scared, but I put on a brave look.

The moment, DM put the scan on my tummy, and looked at the monitor, and then said"the baby is stil there, look" I was so relieved. Only the I have the courage to looked at the monitor- and saw my baby. I was so happy but that did not last for long. DM told us that it's still 50/50 chances, and I have to be extra careful with my pregnancy. He put me on medication, and gave me 2 weeks MC. I asked him, what caused the bleeding and when will it stops? He was saying that this is what they called "internal hemotoma"(or something like that), and it caused by the bleeding from the placenta, and there will always be a chance for miscarriage. I was so scared. I do not want to lose this baby, eventhough at the beginning I was in denial about her existance.

I was having constant bleeding until I reached 6 months of pregnancy. After that everything went ok. My EDD with Adriana is on 11/08/2004. My sister was bugging me for 08/08/2004(because she was born on 08/08). Still remember the day when Adriana was born. Usually we went back to Kajang over the weekends, and that week was not exceptional. We went back to Kajang after I finished work at 6.45pm on Saturday. We had our dinner at Kajang, then watched Akedemi Fantasia 2, this is when Zarina was voted out.

Around 5 o'clock in the morning, I felt a pain, and after 2 pregnancy I knew that it was a contraction, but I thought it would be a false alarm, I woke Amli up, and told him about the pain. He asked me do I want to go to the hospital. I told him, that I think it's a false alarm and that I wanted to wait first. But then the pain became more intense, at 7.00 in the morning, the contraction was 10 minutes apart. This time, Amli insisted that we went to the hospital, so I took the shower and gave Tasya & Azrai their breakfast. At 8.00, we off to the hospital. Amli called my parents and asked them to wait for us at the hospital. At this time, the contraction was 5 minutes apart.

Arrived at APSH, went to the A&E department, since it was Sunday and DM's clinic is not open on Sunday. The staff there send me immediately to the labour room. We have to wait for DM, then he arrived at about 9 something, he checked me and to my surprised, I was 8cm dilated. DM told me, no time to waste,the baby is about to be delivered. I was so shocked. At about 10 in the morning, Adriana was born.

It is very eacy to take care of Adriana. She is so quite, and she always play by herself, probably because she is still small to play with Tasya & Azrai. But she also being bullied by Azrai most of the times. Azrai will punch her, pull her hair, step on her. Pity her and we cannot leave the two of them alone. But she is a survivor-she survive when she was still in my womb, and she survive Azrai. To me she is always the rock that I rely on. I love her.

Mohamad Azrai Arif Amli Mahfuz

D.O.B: 20/03/2003
W.A.B:3.2 kg
P.O.B:Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital

Azrai or better known as Abang is a planned baby. I planned to have another baby when Tasya was 2 years old. People said that 2 years gap is good for children, and this time I wanted a baby boy. My original plan was to have 2 kids: 1 girl and 1 boy.

Since I wanted a baby boy- I did my own research, I searched the internet, read books on how to get baby boy. I even forced my husband to get involve in this pregnancy. I was pregnant in June 2002, this time around-I do not have morning sickness but evening sickness, after 7pm-I cannot do anything. To make things worse, we are moving to our new apartment in August. And having such a wonderful husband, who only knows how to plan without execute it himself-I have to do all the packing, from the clothes, to the kitchen staff, to all others stuff. Imagine, me in my early pregnancy, have to do all the packing.

We moved to a new apartment somewhere in late August, early September. By that time I was 3 months pregnant and I got a new job in BC. So, I quit my old job in early September and I was on leave for 2 weeks before start work at BC. I still have to do all the unpacking, moving things, picked up big boxes, etc.

One day, Amli has to go to Melaka for work, I stayed at home with Tasya-this was few days after we moved. Woke up from sleep, went to the loo and to my shocked, there was a blood on my panty. I was panicked because I lost 2 of my early babies with the same sympthom. Tried to call Amli but he have not swithched on his handphone. I was really pissed off with him. I SMS him and told him that I was bleeding.

After few minutes, he called me and told me that his brother(AA) will come over and bring me to APSH to see my gynea. During that time, I got a call from BC, from my boss to be(P) informing me that there will a one week trip to UK-part of our induction week. I was like, "what if I had a miscarriage, can I still join the trip".

Finally AA came and took me to the hospital, the usual trip will take us about 1 hour but with AA , it only took us 30 minutes. You can imagine our "fun" trip :)

We saw the doctor(DM), and he did the scanning of the baby for me and Thank God, everything is ok. DM said this happened probably I was so tired and did all the hard work, and the baby is telling me to slow down. After this incident, everything went ok with the pregnancy. Azrai even "followed" me to London, and we had fun walking from FCO to the Tate Moderm Museum.

My expected due date(EDD) with Azrai was on 27/03/03, but I was so determined to have him on 20/03/2003. And I guess the power of positive thinkingreally work on him because Azrai was born on 20/03/2003 at 10:03pm on Thursday night.

I had the pain in the afternoon, went to APSH about 3 pm. Got admitted to the labour room at 4pm, DM suggested for me to take the epidural to reduce the labour pain. I was determined to have a drug free labour(after OD with Tasya-I do not want another OD baby!!). Stayed there and watched TV until about 8, when the pain was so intense, finally I asked for the gas. Around 9.30pm, DM came in to the labour room, and said that I was 8 cm dilated,and it's time for the baby pushing. At that time I was so tired and I asked for labour assistance i.e Vacuum but DM said NO. He was really against any labour assistance saying that if he uses vacuum the baby head will be long, etc. During this pain- I really don't care. I just want the pain to went away.

At 10:03pm, Azrai was born. Before he was born, Amli and I had a light argument about his name, we both agreed on the Muhamad part, but I wanted Adam Arif and Amli said he does not want Adam as it been over used by both of our family, then he said he quite like Azrai which means 'nisbah' or equilbrium in English. I wanted Arif as it means wise, and I wanted my son to be a wise man. AMli said that if we put Muhamad Azrai Arif, it will be too long for him, plus his name. But after seeing me struggling with the pain, he finally agreed on the Muhamad Azrai Arif.

Azrai is the most manja and special. He is the only one that has been admitted twice to the hospital due to various illness. He is the one is so close to me, he sleeps with me even in the middle of the night when he wakes up, he will lay down really close to me. He is the 'mat handsome'-he is so particular about his look, nothing can spoil his look. There was one time he was sick in the car, he vomitted, he was not crying because of the pain but cried because the dirt on his shirt. He kept crying "habis abang, habis abang"-looking at his t-shirt. He is so funny and very determined boy. If he said that he wants something, he will make sure that he gets it, his ways. According to chinese horoscope, he will be a rich man when he turns 36. And I think he will be successful person. I really hope that I can count on him to look after the sister and become the man of the house with Amli, so that I have 2 men that I can rely on.

BTW, Azrai has this soft toy that we called 'bunny', it's a purple rabbit(look at the photo above). He is so attached with bunny that he takes it everywhere he goes. There was one time that he went with my brother to my aunt house, he took bunny with him but when they got home my brother told me that he left bunny at my aunt place. That was at 11.30pm at night, we told my brither that he have to get bunny back, but he was so tired. So, we have no choice but to get bunny ourselves. We rather drive and get bunny than having Azrai with his tantrum!!!

Nor Natasya Amli Mahfuz

D.O.B: 02/09/2000
W.A.B:3.36kg
P.O.B: Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital

That is my darling Natasya. She is turning 5 this September. Feels like yesterday, that I first held her in my arms. After 2 failed pregnancy, she was a wonderful gift for me and Amli. When I was preganant with Tasya, I spoiled myself, I eat everything and I put so much weight. I was close to 60 kg when I was pregnant with Tasya.

On 31/8/2000, I felt a bit pain in the stomach but I thought it due to bad indegestion. The next day, we went to KLCC for a last minute shopping. When we got back, there is a red mucus coming out. I went panicked and we went straight to APSH.

Went to see the doctor-got admitted that night. The doctor predicted that I can deliver the baby, the very next day. I was so excited. Waited in pain for more than 24 hours-still no baby. I cannnot take the pain anymore. Asked Amli to call in the doctor. Doctor came in-asked for pain killer, at first he was quite reluctant to give ot to me but I kindda force him to. Got the pain killer, slept for about 2 hours, woke up - the pain was more intense.

At about 9.30pm, I was wheeled to the deliver room, and I thought "Thank God"-it will be over soon. I was so wrong. Went to the deliver room-still nothing happened apart from the very unbearable pain. Imagine going thru that pain for 24 hours. Could not take the pain anymore-asked for more pain killer-nurses suggested the gas-took it. Really help ease the pain. Really depended on it until I was OD by it.

At about 11.30pm, the doctor went in. One looked at me and he knew that I have no ebergy left to deliver the baby withour nay help. He suggested for Vacuum, without hesitation, I agreed to that. After more than 24 hours of labour pain, Tasya was born on 02/09/2000 at 12.03 midnight.

Fast forward-5 years, she has turned into a very bright girl. She is so smart and I am so proud of her. She can read when she was only 4 years old. She can do simple calculation now,and her passion is too look and feel glamour. She loves limelight, all attention must be on her. Sometimes she is ok other time, she is really getting on my nerve. I guess that is kids right. But most of the time I am so proud of her and I love her very much.

Money Machine

Tasya has asked me to become a money machine. Can you believe that?? She would rather have me working 7 days a week and bring a lots of money rather than spending 2 days with her and her siblings.

This all started when her cousins(N & N) came to our house over the weekends. My sister in-law and her husband had do to something over the weekends, and asked the grandparents to took the kids to our house. During our conversation with the cousins, I teased N & N, said something like "wow, your parents must have a lots of money since they work all day-even on weekends". Being a naive kids, they agreed on this statement.

Tasya has put 2 and 2 together and came up with her own conclusion that if your parents work all day, they wil be able to bring in lots of money therefore can be rich and can buy lots of toys for you. Since that day, she is bugging me to work everyday even on Sunday!!!

I asked her, "don't you want mama to be with you and take care of you?" Her replied " yes, but I would even like it if you work all day and buy more toys for me".

Ah????? My daughter, the material girl wants to turn her mama into a money machine.

I've created a monster!!!!!

Our Idol..Finally We Met Him

Last night, Tasya & Azrai dream of meeting with Zahid(AF2) finally came true.

Astro was doing this Gempak Astro, where their Stars will go around and meet the fans. Last night they had this event at NZ Curry House in Wangsa Maju. We were not planning to go there at all, because Amli and I knew that the place will be crowded with people. We had our dinner at near by mamak restaurant.

On the way to our car, we heard people singing and the Tasya screamed with excitment, "mama, mama, tu Zahid nanyi". I asked her, are you sure? She said Yes.

Then, Amli asked me "do you want to bring them to see the show? But we have to walk and you have to carry Adriana". I said ok because both Tasya and Azrai both were so excited.

We went there and to my surprised, there not many people there. We can go straight to the front of the stage and watched him sings.

I asked them to went really in front of the stage, so that they had a better view of him but they refused and suddenly they became very shy.

After the show, I saw all the artists were holding postcards to give away to the fans. Quickly I asked Tasya to go in front but she refused. I then just grabbed Azrai and went to front of the stage and asked Azrai to waved at Rina( she is one of the AF3 students who was not voted in). He did and he got the postcards that have all the artists signatures.

He was so happy and kept the postcard close to him. Tasya upon seeing Azrai had this, wanted one for herself unfortunately, all the artists haeve left the stage. So, none for her.

She was really sad and dissapointed. She kept asking from Azrai to see the postcard and Azrai knew that this time his has the winning ticket, he acted on it. Tasya have to be extra nice to him.

To avoid the postcard from being torn apart, I have to laminate it at the office. Extra work for Mama.

I can take care of you

Lately I noticed that Tasya has grown up, in term of taking respossibilities. She is more reliable and more tolerate compared to before. There was one day when Tasya & Azrai were left alone(with my sister who pretended to be asleep), when they decided to take a bath(or in this case a shower). Tasya decided to be the personal in charge( which is not too difficult for her as that is her nature-being bossy).

On that day, she really showed us her maturity, she took off Azrai's clothes, and really showed him, even shampooed his hair, brushed his teeth, really clean the brother for good that day. My sister was watching them from her bed, ready to rescue them if anything bad happened.

After that, Tasya even put on Azrai's clothes for him. When we got back from work, my sister told the story to us, and I was so proud of Tasya. When I asked Azrai, who bathe him this morning, he answered "Akak", and I asked him again "did you brush your teeth and shampooed your hair", he replied "yes" and then "air wak"(this is his word when we pour water on him)

I guess, Tasya is a grown up girl now, sooner or later I will have another headache with her and her boyfriends!!!